Hey, Mom! How are you? I think I’m ok, but I don’t really know. I spoke with Jade on the phone yesterday and came to the conclusion that I don’t really feel tethered to anything anymore. The day I lost you it felt like whoever was holding my rope let go, and I’m just drifting along like a wayward parade balloon. Probably dumb imagery, but I don’t really know how to describe what I’m feeling.
Cliff and I are talking about moving. He is still tethered. He has his mom and Eddie. He doesn’t want to move too far away, and I don’t want Ramsey to lose touch with her remaining grandparents. But I feel the pull to go elsewhere. We may end up moving to Granville County, which is the county north of Wake. It’ll be quieter, more peaceful. I don’t know if it will feel like home, but it’s where I feel the shift of the wind.
On that sappy note, I’ll share some Ramsey pics with you. Over the weekend, Ramsey asked to go to the nearby Corn Maze after she rode horses. Since we weren’t prepared to go on Saturday, I told her we would take her on Sunday. She must have said the words “corn maze” 200 times on Saturday. I finally said that first sleep, then corn maze. Around 7:30, she said “Let’s go to bed.” And on her way up the stairs she repeated, “first sleep, then corn maze.” And of course, it was the first thing she said when she woke up on Sunday. She was pretty patient, and she got to go to the corn maze. She didn’t even want to do the maze. She just wanted to play on the structures.
The other thing she recently requested was “punch gloves”. I guess she saw them on a video because she requested them over and over on Friday. She picked some out on Amazon, and they arrived on Sunday. She had quite the day with corn maze and punch gloves keeping her busy.
In other Ramsey news, she has been requesting new foods to try. One day she asked for a burger and another day she wanted a “sandwich with ham, lettuce and tomato”. She only took the tiniest nibble of the bread on the sandwich. She actually took a bite of the burger, and even though she shivered as she chewed and swallowed it, she followed it up with an enthusiastic “mmmmmmmmmmm!” It’s not much, but it’s a start.
And just to give you more smiles, here is a picture of my girl that she wanted to take to show her itchy arm. I have no idea how she comes up with this stuff.
My other little girl is growing up so fast. She’s learning how to fetch, which is amazing. I can’t believe we might have two fetchers in our house. We’ve started crating her at night and when we leave. She’s doing really well with it. She’s been such a good dog, my sweet therapy mutt who has helped me through my pain this year. And she’s still such a cuddler. I get my best cuddles in the morning.
Well, that’s my update. Only 11 more days until the boy ties the knot. I know you’ll be looking in. Just avert your eyes from any of those you don’t want to see.
I love you, Mom.
Hey, Mom! How are you? 